A lot of times I just like being alone and people can take it as I’m feeling bad or ask me what’s wrong. It’s college, everyone wants to drink and have fun and sometimes that’s not all I want. I’ve had my drinks. I’ve had my fun. I just want to start living and doing what I think is the best direction for my life. A drink and a party is okay every now and then but I really would only do it minimally. Life has been great in the ‘vine, but I don’t know if this is what I want forever. I’ve already felt the disappointment from my mother and sisters when I made decisions that were wrong. It’s not that I just want to please everyone who expects things of me, but I also want to make my own decisions. It gets hard balancing a life of pleasing your friends and family and at the same time going your own path. I’m at a place in my life right now where I want to really get started in my dream of becoming an architect. I just want to focus on becoming knowledgeable in the field of my future career. Dance has been such a great outlet to relieve stress and yet even that could be stressful sometimes when my mother can see it as something that is distracting me from my studies and when the people I surround myself with can influence what I do but I’ve done fairly well in my opinion. I’m just over a lot of things, but I will never do something just to please a group of people. I think that’s the most important lesson I’ve learned this past summer. It’s a great feeling to know that you’re in charge of yourself.
Deflate when writing prose; inflate when writing essays for school.
Procrastinating on finding ways to add one page to my essay to get the page requirement! Thank you so much.
I’m not in school anymore, but here.
Zarathustra the cat with his life size portrait by Claude Monet.